trigger warning: weight-loss, surgery, eating disorder, depression, bipolar disorder
To be completely honest, I’ve never been good at posting trigger warnings. There are a lot of things that trigger, and I never know if I cover all the bases. I hope those suffice. Anyhow,
I’ve been overweight my whole life. I’ve always been down on myself, to the point where my battles with depression and bipolar disorder were exponentially worsened.
Last summer, I had an extreme bout of bulimia; binge eating a purging everything. A lot of this was also due to my Lap-Band* being far too tight. I dropped close to sixty pounds in a little less than four months. As much as I was digging the results, I just wasn’t healthy. I had the Band adjusted, and gained back a lot of the weight. So it goes.
Yet, for years I’ve always had insecurities with my double chin. Playing guitar in a band means a lot of pictures of me looking down at my guitar or feet a la “shoegaze” which in turn means seeing my double chin. But you know what? As much as it makes me feel uncomfortable, I think I do a good job at just owning it and making it work.
And with my body and weight? I’m slowly and surely on the right path to making it all work. :)
*Back in 2008, I had Lap-Band surgery for weight loss. If any of you reading this are interested in having the operation, or just have questions regarding it, please feel free to shoot me some asks on my page. I’ll be more than glad to answer any questions you may have!
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