(Sorry if I made some mistakes but English is not my first language)
Trigger Warning for mentions of weight loss and negative body image
Hi, I’m Fernanda and I’m 15 years old. As you can see, this is a clear picture of my face.
I’ve always been very insecure. A Few months ago I used to hate myself. I hated what I saw in the mirror: a fat and horrible girl. Though I was never obese or even fat, I was just overweight. I used to hear my parents talking about me at night, they said I was becoming a “pig”, they said they were disappointed in me, and I was tired of disappointing them.
A few time later I went to a nutritionist, and in just three months she helped me in more ways she could ever imagine. I lost 23 pounds and I was extremely happy, my parents were proud of me, my friends and family told me I look great and skinny and I started loving myself for first time.
That didn’t last so long as I expected. There have always been another big complex in me.
As you can see, I have a big nose (with a piercing) and small eyes (one of them is bigger than the other one, and yeah, I know it’s normal). The skin in my cheeks is not as healthy as I’d want it to be, I don’t like my wavy hair at all, and my face is really, REALLY round. Even if I was skinny, I had a fat-girl face. The only thing I liked about it, were my green eyes.
I recently gained weight, but I still look thin, fortunately. My face makes me look fatter than I am, because I have big cheeks. Sometimes my friends make jokes about me, telling me I’m ugly and things like that, and even if I know they are joking and they don’t really think that, it hurts.
I saw my friends and I used to compare them to me. They were beautiful, and I was not. I looked into the mirror for long time, trying to see something pretty in my face, and I couldn’t. And it really, REALLY hurt. I didn’t like people to see my face and I tried to hide it and I hated the pictures about myself that my friends took me.
After long time, I started to accept myself as I am and think about me as someone beautiful. I know I’m not a beauty queen and my face is really strange, but that doesn’t make me ugly. Now I like my round face, some people even say it makes me sweet. I’m beautiful, everybody is beautiful.
The secret is stop comparing yourself to others and love who you are and the things that make you different from others.
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