Hi! My name is Jaimie and I am 17 :) I know that picture isn’t the best but there is more of me on my blog here.
Ever since I can remember I have been overweight. But, I know that’s not really a time frame so I’m going to say I started gaining weight in 3rd grade. I didn’t really even notice and to tell you the truth I didn’t really see anything wrong with body image. When I was little my mom weighed 300 pounds and when I was around 6 she got a bypass to loose the weight. When I went clothes shopping and had to pick out the biggest size shirt it just went over my head, I mean they are just clothes and everyone wears clothes. But, to tell you the truth, I still wish I had my little kid mind that just didn’t care.
I kept gaining weight throughout the years and again never thought of it. I went on to middle school and made a lot of friends, we hung out everyday and life was good. I remember the first day I thought I was fat, I thought I didn’t look right. This day was the first day of high school.
I looked at all the other girls, they got to wear the girly things they wanted without worrying about it not coming in their size, and I wanted to be like that. At first I thought I was over reacting and just let it slide off my back, but then I went to the doctors for a check up. I was a 14 year old girl that weighed 216 pounds.
The doctors really didn’t say anything about my weight, and if they did I really don’t remember. All I remember thinking at the time was that I needed to loose weight and noting else. That was the day I told myself that I wanted to change myself for me. Now that I look back I give my self a pat on the back for not changing my body because of a guy or anything like that I just didn’t want to be the person I was. I wanted to go shopping knowing that I didn’t have to go to the plus sizes. I wanted to hang out with my friends and not have my weight hold me back. I wanted to feel comfort in my own skin.
Everyone always asks me how I lost the weight and I can’t really explain it. I guess it was my mindset that really got me going. I started drinking a lot of water, 8 glasses a day, 1 cold glass after every meal. I also noticed that from drinking water I ate less. And that’s all I did. Some people think this way was unhealthy, but I will tell you that if I wanted a slice of cake I had my slice of cake! It was just a smaller slice, and if you can loose weight and eat cake it can’t be unhealthy…. well yeah I guess it is, but you get my point.
Over the next year I watched the pounds shed off. My clothes got baggy, I went down a jean size or two and people were noticing. I was really happy, and people were happy for me! Now that I look back on it I still wish I was this happy.
I know I wrote a story and I know this is a stop hating your body blog but I don’t hate it I’m just unhappy. I want to say my weight leveled off at the start of my 11th grade year, and it is what I am at now. I went from being 216 lbs. to 140 lbs., size 18 to 7/9 in about a year and a half. I should be happy about this, and I am but now I’m picking out things I don’t like about myself. Some days I feel really close to that not hating my body goal but then I look in the mirror and it changes. I’m still trying to make my body better, flatten my stomach, get rid of my jiggly arms and thighs. I also hate on my face, I think I have a big nose.
But, after pointing out all of my flaws I stop and think. I still see myself as 216 pound me. I also have never seen myself through other peoples eyes. When I think these things I know I’m almost at not hating my body but then I look in the mirror and am back where I started.
I know one day I will get there, and if you find no comfort in your skin you will get there too. My goal is to be an actress one day, but that’s not all I want to be. I want to be a role model for all those girls that don’t look like miley cyrus or salena gomez (sorry if I spelled the wrong its late at night) I want to tell girls that they are beautiful no matter what they look like! I want to be a person that shows everyone that hates on those girls that they shouldn’t. I really want to change the way media has twisted body image! And I know I can’t really do that if I can’t fully accept my body. But one day I will accept me for me, when that day comes I will start on my actress/motivator dream and the world better watch out!
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