Hello, I’m Lizzy :) I am 19 years old.
I became a bulimic at the end of the 6th grade. I was fairly chunky all throughout elementary, and by the time I hit 6th grade, I grew much taller and got thin. It was a new feeling, and I NEVER wanted it to go away. I stopped getting called chunky, felt better about myself, and boys started noticing me. Throwing up other day didn’t seem THAT bad. It made me feel good, so why not, right? But every other day turned into every meal. It was uncontrollable, and I became addicted to staying skinny.
One morning I awoke with the worst stomach ache. I couldn’t eat and my stool (not to be all gross) was bloodied. I immediately went to the hospital. They found that I had ulcers. Bulimia is a cause to this, and in my case, was. Although I looked good, I was destroying my body. I told myself, ” I don’t want to be like this anymore. I need help.”
At first I went to see a counselor, but that didn’t help. I went to see 3 others, and again, I was still in my same state.
With time, I learned that I , myself, am the only one who can pull myself out of this, and I DID. It was hard, don’t get me wrong, but with motivation and the want to have a normal life, I made it through. Don’t let people’s judgments and hatred get the best of you, because you will never succeed if you do. Believe in yourself. LOVE YOURSELF. And know that you are BEAUTIFUL.Surround yourself by good people, and genuine family and friends.
For those who suffer from bulimia, I know it’s hard to fit in society if you’re not a certain size, especially with these stick thin models, but you’re beautiful and in the long run, you are only harming the body God has given you. Flaunt your curves. Shake that ass. Look at yourself in the mirror and just be like “DAMN, I LOOK GOOD.” Because I am sure you do, and I won’t be the only person who agrees. And if you need help, get it. It is out there. Don’t let this take over your life. Talk to someone. I’m always all ears if you ever just need someone to vent to! :)
And today, I proudly say I have been bulimia-free for 5 years (and still going). I love food. I love my body. I got some junk in the trunk, but hey, I flaunt it and appreciate that I actually have one lol. ( I COULD USE TO BOOBS TOO). I am happy to not have to run to the bathroom all the time and not feel guilty about eating. YOU SHOULDN’T EITHER.
Start today. Love yourself. Take care of your body. And don’t let bulimia control your life. Take that cheeseburger, eat it, and go on a run! You will be so much happier in the end.
BE BRAVE! JOIN THE BODY PEACE REVOLUTION!