(at this point I am anticipating reactions to those who read this, mixed positive and nervous as fuck :/ )
Okay so I have been on SHYB a lot and it has given me a lot of confidence, I have even followed a few bloggers as well.
I have never had a flat stomach, well as a small kid yeah, but never when i got older. All through school I was bullied mostly because I am gay, I guess people figured it out. It made me really self conscious of myself, I hated the fact that I was/am gay, so I literally forced myself to become attracted to girls, for about 9-10 months now I have finally come to terms with being gay, it has been so fucking difficult, but I have done it.
The next thing I am tackling is my body issues, I am 6 ft 3, and I weigh 16 stone (i am in the UK and do not know the US equivalent) I am naturally big boned, i got mostly muscley type flesh and a bit of fat. no matter how hard I worked out, no matter how healthy I ate, my body stayed the same, well, most of the time anyway. I have given up on working out for the time being (when it becomes a literal problem I will deal with it then) I read about girls on SHYB blog and some of them relate to my very own issues and/or what I have gone through with my body.
When I was about 15-16 I just ate loads and loads of chocolate, for example id have 4 12 packs of Twix bars, 3 packets of another choc bar, an entire choc cake and anything covered in chocolate, that was in ONE DAY, because I was being teased by family, id say friends but I went through school without any, literally I went all through school without any friends in any way shape or form. I didn’t make my first friend until 4 years ago when I moved out into a place of my own :)
I too have self harmed, starved myself, hated myself, but for what, so I could fit into a certain box? so I could get others approval? I agree with those that say it is difficult, theres no denying it .. BUT the fight is well worth it, I know that for sure. I have tackled accepting that I am gay, that took 11 years but I did it :) positive mind prevails hateful mind.
My biggest insecurity has been my stomach and I have realised that I should not be self conscious of it, I should be fucking proud of it :D I used to hide away from skin tight clothes (mostly t-shirts and hoodies) but now I wear them happily :)
You are beautiful
You are stronger than you give yourself credit for
You are a good person
You are NOT ugly
You are NOT worthless
You deserve to be happy and you deserve to be respected and respected.
I treat others as I wish to be treated in return. :) I treat people with respect, love, caringness (its totally a word lol) and I am here for you, all you got to do is Inbox me :D I will happily listen, I will happily be your friend (if you want) as I enjoy meeting new people and hearing about what YOU got to say :D
I thank you so much for taking time to read this, thank you :)
ps : I love my stomach ^_^ (tummy love)
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