Posts tagged annieelainey
Posts tagged annieelainey
AM I SUPPOSED TO HATE MY BODY?
AM I SUPPOSED TO HATE MY BODY?
Trigger Warning: body image
Probably the best thing I’ve ever learned in my life is to love myself no matter what body I am in.
For so long, I’d look in the mirror seeing something that wasn’t really there, I was of the belief that I was monstrously ugly, that people were disgusted by my fat, my face, the color of my skin. I lived in that belief and it affected me every single day, it haunted my every thought, every time I would walk into a room I thought everyone would rather I leave, as opposed to having to look at me. I remember the days when I would cry because I’d been invited to a pool party, in fear of being seen in a bathing suit. I remember crying in fear of ever being seen in lingerie.
These are irrational fears, not just for me, but for anyone. No matter what body you are in, if you want to wear a swimsuit, WEAR A SWIMSUIT. This is not a story about how I changed my size and felt better about myself, because well, that didn’t happen. This is a story about how I changed the way I thought about myself to feel better about myself.
The first time I wore a bikini to the beach, I was still terrified and uncomfortable, but it was a step that needed to be taken. I needed to see that at the end of the day, it is not a big deal if my tummy and legs jiggle when I run, or that my tummy rolls when I sit down, or you can see my cellulite. THIS HAPPENS AND IT’S OKAY!!
Here’s some truth, there WILL be people out there that will judge you, that will dislike you because of your size, your skin color, etc. But it’s definitely not everyone and even if it were you don’t need to worry about them. Your life isn’t FOR THEM. Your life is for you! YOU are in this body! YOU deserve to be happy and live your life as you wish and they have NO say in the matter. Do not give ignorant, cruel people, the power to cage you. Be free. There WILL be people who will love you.
It seriously causes me such pain to see people go through what I went through, to see people in pain because of their self-perception. I hope that no matter what body you are in, you will face your fears, and you will understand that you deserve to love your body no matter what it looks like, no matter what is going on, the least you can do is feel good about yourself, give yourself that much, allow yourself to smile and to feel happy!
Don’t ever be afraid of your bikinis, girls!
Love your bodies, love yourselves, be confident and just have fun! Life is too short for self-loathing!
You deserve to be happy! So embrace your body! Be thankful for what you have! You are ALIVE!! Take a DEEP breath. You feel that air? The oxygen filling up your lungs. That’s beautiful.
You have all the opportunities in the world! You can do anything! I know that there is darkness in the world, there are cruel people, and shitty circumstances. But the world keeps spinning, it’s not gonna stop, every day is a new day, full of new opportunities and we should all take advantage. I know it can hurt, I know what it’s like to want to die because of how much it hurts… but you can turn it all around. You find joy in life no matter what your circumstances! It’s not over until it’s over, and there is so much LIFE out there for you to explore!
You are beautiful. Your life is beautiful. Take another breath, inhale positivity and light, let it attach itself to your lungs. Exhale, pain and anger, push it all out. You’re doing it, you’re surviving and you can love yourself and you can be happy.
I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU WEIGH OR WHAT INSECURITIES YOU HAVE! PROMISE ME YOU’RE GOING TO TRY AND LOVE YOUR BODY THIS SUMMER! PROMISE ME YOU’RE GOING WERQ WHAT YOU’VE GOT!!
Touch the part of your body you feel insecure about. Just place your hand on it. Don’t squeeze, pinch it, or poke it. Just touch it. Keep this physical contact for a while and mentally send positivity and love to that part. You spend so much time over analyzing it, accusing it, and shaming it, so take a moment to just love it for what it is, at this very moment in time. It is a part of you and it is beautiful. You are beautiful. -annieelainey
Check yourself if you are one of the people that reblogs a photo of a person and assumes their health because of their size.
FIGHT TO END BODY POLICING AND FAT SHAMING!!
This photo, believe it or not, exposed practically everything on my body that I was once afraid of; my large nose, my flabby arms and thighs, and my round, chubby tummy.
They are not so scary to me anymore… at all.
It took me quite a while to get here, but it never would’ve happened if I didn’t make the conscious decision to stop hating my body, stop being afraid, stop worrying about what other people thought, and start living, start celebrating being alive!
Our bodies are our canvases, our shells, and within these shells we are glorious human beings who deserve love and respect and peace within ourselves.
Q&A Wednesday: How did you become so confident?
Warning: Touch a bit on disordered eating, destructive behavior, and I throw the F-bomb around a bit so….
EDIT: Been asked about the progressive “activities” I was referring to:
- Dressing up/photoshoots
- Minimizing exposure to media (tv, radio, etc)
- Excluding poisonous people from my life, lots of solitude for a while
- Wearing a bikini at the beach (even though I was scared)
- Learning to be body positive (health looks different on every body, “fat” is not an insult)
- Traveling/vacation alone
We are a campaign fighting for body acceptance for ALL body types, no matter what. We reject the idea of using health as an excuse to bully someone, and we do not condone negative talk about your body. This is YOUR body, it is your life, and do not let any one police who you are.
Natalia Rajska/Gabrielle Liddiard (Actors)
Some clips from:
Tatiana Mercedes: blog // channel
Annie Elainey: blog // channel
Carly Cristman: channel
Video clips sent in from:
Katie: blog // secondary blog
Aurora (Blog not sent)
Kaylah (Blog not sent)
Thank you so, so much to all of you for letting me use your videos.
SUBMISSION FROM THE CREATOR OF SHYB
Trigger Warning for mentions of abuse, past-tense negative self image, mentions of obsession with being thin, temporary unhealthy amounts eating/exercise
Many of my insecurities and self-esteem issues stemmed from my father being abusive in the home towards both my mother and I, he was the biggest bully I’ll ever know. My mom found escape in her work, so I became dad’s main target. He would make me feel as though I was much larger than I actually was, and make me feel as though it made me ugly. He would make fun of my nose, my fat, and just degrade me.
Without realizing, my very best friend turned out to be an emotional manipulator. She was obsessed with becoming thin, she filled my head with ideas such as “no one is ever going to respect you if you’re not skinny, no one’s ever going to like you if you’re not skinny, you will never get work as an actor if you’re not skinny.”
I’d fallen for it, I felt ashamed of my body. I secretly started taking diet pills and tried to eat as little as I could, and worked out in dangerous amounts in accordance to my practically non-existent calorie intake. This was all SO ridiculous, because not only did it NOT work, but it made the depression worse. I lost it for a bit. I had no food in my system; I became depressed, I hallucinated, I couldn’t get out of bed. It was awful.
I moved back in with my mom, mid-semester. Just before Christmas break a professor asked me, “Annie, can you even look yourself in the mirror and say you’re worth it?” we tried… I couldn’t. She made me stay in her office, until I was sobbing, looked myself in the eye and said, “I’m worth it.”
I decided it was time to make a change. I took a year off from school to focus on myself. I practiced thinking positive thoughts, every day, if I had a poisonous thought, I would replace it with a positive and somewhere along the line, I found clarity. The darkness started melting away. I was becoming me again. I ran (as a hobby) only if and when I wanted to. I ate delicious foods, bought clothes that made me feel good; I stopped caring about what I looked like. I started realizing, “Wow… I’m not ugly! Why did I think I was!?!”
I realized, I can celebrate EVERY DAY! I can do something that makes me happy, I can allow myself to be wowed, I can smile EVERY DAY! And it doesn’t matter what I look like! WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK? I can be happy! I DESERVE to be happy!
- I have thrown away my scale. I am beautiful no matter what! As long as I am happy, that’s all that matters to me.
- I removed poisonous people from my life, I took time to myself, and rediscovered my beauty.
- I allowed myself to fall in love with myself, to love every nook and cranny my body has to offer, I allowed myself to fall in love with LIFE! Love life and life will love you back.
You just have to try and stay positive, be kind to others, not care what people think, and enjoy your life, no matter what cards you’ve been dealt.
Edit: Please do not feel the need to say negative things about my dad as he has recently passed, and him and I have reconciled.