tw: emotional abuse, bullying, depression
So… this is me. For years, ever since I was little, I was bullied about my weight, and generally felt insecure about it all my life. Not only was it other kids, but extended family would make comments whenever I saw them too. I always felt like I had too big of a gut… that would never go away. I was incredibly insecure about it. Also… my chest has always looked like I have breasts, and being a guy, that’s something I’ve always been iffy about as well (and, yeah, I’ve been bullied about that too).
Over the years I learned to sort of accept they were there, but I never really enjoyed it. I refused to take my shirt off in public. I refused to let anyone see me without clothing. I found myself wishing daily that I could get rid of my stomach and chest, but nothing I ever tried worked. They were just kind of there. Over the past few years however, I’ve had a specific friend who has been trying to convince me otherwise, that they’re part of me and that they’re beautiful. It’s not until recently that I’ve actually started listening to her, and that in of itself took years to happen. I’ve also been cutting out all toxic people in my life, and getting rid of all the negativity involved therein - which has done wonders for my mental health and well-being (which was never very healthy either).
I’m finally starting to love the way I look as opposed to just accepting it. It is part of me, and it is beautiful. And my being able to say that… is evidence of just how far I’ve come mentally and emotionally. My self-esteem is completely opposite of what it used to be. I can say I’m sexy and attractive now, and actually believe it.
Everyone is beautiful in their own ways, every single person alive. Don’t let anyone tell you or make you think otherwise. It’s taken years for me to feel this way about myself, but I know you can do the same. I believe in all of you.
BE BRAVE! JOIN THE BODY PEACE REVOLUTION!