Trigger: Eating Disorder, Self Harm, Suicide Attempts, Drug Abuse
Ive been struggling with body image since I was 8 years old. I won’t go into a lot of detail but what started as simple dissatisfaction turned into an eating disorder that turned into self injuring that turned into weed, then coke then heroin that i’ve been trying to juggle with for over 4 years now (4 years riddled with countless suicide attempts, 7 if you include the one the other night). I normally don’t like my body at all, its too this its too that, i don’t have enough curves, i have too many curves, my waist isn’t definite my boobs are too big my boobs are too small. The complaints are endless. But today, for some reason, I feel totally at peace with my body. I like the way it curves and sits and I hope that I can have days like this more often. Ive been destroying my body for far too long and id just like to take a moment to step back and really appreciate everything it does for me. I’m sorry body, i’m going to start treating you better, I promise XD
