I’m Taylor, I am sixteen 5’7-5’8ish and i weigh roughly around 100lbs. Too clear things up i have never in my life been through an eating disorder, i havenever been anorexic, bulimic etc.And yet i’m treated like i am. Growing up i have always just been the ugly girl, the anorexic, the weird one or the bitch. From 1st grade until today I don’t know how many times i have come home crying because some kids verbally abused me everyday at school. A couple weeks ago i was at the mall with my cousin and these guys approached us and got in my face yelling about my eyes, harassing me for looking Asian causing a scene because of my appearance. I’m 1/4 Japanese so i have “chink eyes”. This Has horribly hurt my self esteem, and i’m extremely insecure about a lot of things. High metabolism’s run in my family, i come from women with small built frames and i can’t help my thin body appearance. I’ve gotten better with my confidence, it’s still extremely low and i still have days when i just feel disgusted with my image. I’ve been through depression over my appearance and the things that people have said and say to me. No one understands how this affects me. Most people think it doesn’t hurt when they point out that some ones really thin, because hey they’re not fat. When your saying it like “ew taylor your really thin, its kinds gross” that hurts my feelings. It hurts just as much as telling a fat girl shes obese. I don’t choose to look like this, i used to wish i was bigger i wished i wasn’t japanese i wished i just looked like every other girl. But then my grandmother told me she went through the same things. My grandmother was a model for Ford modeling agency, she’s full japanese and coming to america was hard for her. People gave her a hard time and She was strong enough to blow it off. She is my inspiration, she is my future. She’s helped me realize that i may not look average, or be all curvy but i look different, i stand out. My look is bold and exotic, it may not be of certain peoples standards or prefrences. But i’m proud to be 1/4 Japanese, I’m proud of having a size 0 body and being tall having legs for miles. But your words still hurt. But i will make it through, I’m strong and it’s going to take more than a couple words, calling me ugly or a skeleton to bring me down. I’m only human. I’m Not here for your judgement or you sympathy, i just want respect.
