Accepting myself is probably one of the biggest struggles I’ve faced. I don’t have a traumatic story to tell, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t had to fight my own fight. I’ve never really self harmed, never been abused, never had some…significant loss. But everyone struggles with how they feel about themselves. I’ve never been small, and spent a lot of junior and the past three years of high school comparing myself to other girls that I see around me. She’s got longer hair, she’s got a flatter tummy, she’s more petite, she has a prettier voice. Stupid things, down to the fact that someone has cuter toes than me. I used to spend so much time…hating myself, who I was. I tend to be the one who…is cracking jokes, acting confident, that sort of thing. But I can not even count how many times I cried and cursed myself for looking like I do or not being a different person. It’s taken me a long time to realize that that isn’t how I should be living. I may not be perfect, but I’m a pretty darn good person. I like to help people, I’m a good student, I don’t cause much trouble, and I try to be the best me that I can be. I know that being a teenager can be horrible. I know that high school can suck. But what I’ve come to find out is that it is what you make it. Make the right choices; YOU control how people make you feel, YOU control what you get involved with, that sort of thing. There will always be someone better than you, whether it is longer hair, skinnier, taller. But there will never be anyone quite like you. Once you begin to love yourself, the rest will follow. Next time you start to envy someone else, remember that they aren’t 100% confident either. The girl that’s extremely skinny might be tired of someone telling her to eat a hamburger. The girl who is six feet tall might be tired of being called a giraffe. They could easily be just as self conscious as you are. I mean, being a 36DD, I have a lot of my friends saying that they wish they had a chest like mine, or people making comments. But I’m insecure about it somedays, and wish I was smaller chested. The grass always looks greener on the other side. But really, it’s just green where you water it.
Everyone truly is beautiful in their own way. Don’t worry so much about how other people see you or how other people are ‘better’ than you. Just focus on making yourself the best you can be and the world a better place. Have a lovely day!