Hey there, readers! My name is Stephanie, but you can call me Steph, Stephie, Stephers, Blockhead (whoops, don’t call me that, please!)… Whatever suits you! :D
I’ll warn ya’ll right now, I’m issuing a trigger warning for SELF-HATE, SELF HARM, EATING DISORDERS, and DEATH FEARS.
Like many before me, my troubles started at the cusp of puberty. I’ve involved myself in most eating disorder behaviors, have been on every end of the weight spectrum, and have self-harmed numerous times.
But the scars heal, and my weight has leveled out. I still struggle with it daily, but only now has my fear of death by ED overpowered my fear of being overweight. I indirectly know several people (all on the path to recovery) who have passed due to their disease, and I have promised myself to not be one of them. I love my personality, my gorgeous lips, my beautiful smile, my strong build. I’m beginning to understand that bodies come in all shapes and sizes, but the most beautiful body is the one you’re MEANT to have, not the one you try so desperately to obtain. I’m 15 years old, entering my sophomore year in Northfield, Minnesota, and an avid artist. I’m a lesbian and somewhat genderqueer, in the fact that while I usually identify as female, it always seems like such a tedious choice and I sometimes honestly with I were male, which does sometimes lead to body hate. But I know it won’t be my looks that get me a girlfriend, but rather my shining personality and the confidence I’ve been slowly regaining.
I’m in this fight for the long-run, and I urge everybody to join me. I love meeting new people, and I’d love nothing more than to hear from YOU, reader! So head on over to my new personal blog at www.findingpeacewithcoyote.tumblr.com and shoot me a message!