(Trigger Warning for Mental Illness, self harm, bullying, suicide attempt)
Hello I’m Emma and I’m from the United States. I’m 16 years old and this a sort synopsis of my story:
I had Social Anxiety since 2nd grade, I was bullied and physically harrassed daily in 4th grade for being “a dyke”, or a “lesbian”. In 6th grade I started having mild panic attacks and developed restrictive eating habits after being call “fat” daily for three years. I told my mother about my panic attacks(three times) desperately looking for help. She didn’t believe me. She didn’t think that a 6th grader could have panic attacks. She thought it was for attention. So to cope with my anxiety, and mild panic attacks, I began cutting. Daily. Almost every, single day. I stopped for a while during 7th-8th, but when I got to high school my anxiety came back, I started having symptoms of PTSD, and EDNOS. So I continued to cut. I hated myself, my body.
It got so bad that one of my friends was concerned that I was suicidal and told my school. I ended up getting sent to the emergency room.
Now I’m in the process of “recovering” from everything. I’m on medication, I’m in therapy, I’ve stopped self-harming for a couple months. And I’m healing.