TRIGGER WARNINGS: EATING DISORDER, SELF-HATE, VERBAL ABUSE/BULLYING
Hi, I’m Miss Titania. I’m a model, dancer and student.
Few years back I had a rough time of it. I stopped dancing and almost stopped modeling because of what others thought of my body. I spent a lot of time not eating and even worrying about how much water I drank. I was afraid it would make me look bad if I drank too much. Some of my pictures were posted online and there were vicious comments about the way my body looked. It got me really down for a long time.
One day, I received a message that there had been a comment on one of my photos. I dreaded looking at it for fear it was another demeaning reply. To my surprise it was a comment from another woman. She told me how my courage to leave my photos up, despite the negativity, was really empowering to her and that it had made her feel better about who she was. I had never imagined that could be the impact for others of my desire to model at a size 12+.
Since then I have been on the road to regaining my self-esteem, my love of self and my courage. I am back to dancing. I’ve kicked the habit of worrying about food and water consumption. I’ve started to focus on my career and who I really want to be. The greatest thing I have gained is learning how my comfort and strength and confidence in myself can make others stronger. Never forget that when you are a strong woman (or man) and confident in yourself and your beauty that you can help others just by being who you are. That is a truly amazing thing.