Hello loves, me again. For a refresher, this is my first submission and this is my second. It’s only been a couple of months since I last submitted and I’m so happy to say that I’m doing a bit better. Ever since I got my tattoo, I’ve gained confidence and developed a love for my thighs. Now it’s time to start focusing on the other parts of my body I have yet to adore.
That picture is of me in a bikini bottom, a sight no one has seen in many years. Due to the verbal abuse I suffer from at home, I’ve been taught to think my body is disproportional. I have small breasts, a slim waistline, but my hips and butt are noticeably larger. I’m definitely “bottom heavy” and I’m embarrassed to be seen in anything skimpier than a pair of shorts. I avoid wearing tight fitting clothes that accentuate the curve of my bottom and I die a little inside every time my mom or sister calls me “Big Butt”.
I absolutely despise having my picture taken from the side or behind. From these angles, it’s very clear just how big my bottom is. However, I want to change the way I view my body. I want to love my curves, every single one of them.
I almost didn’t include this picture in my post, but I realized that I had to. I might not be ready to step onto a beach without a pair of shorts on, but I am ready to show at least this much to this wonderful community. When I submit to this site and look back on all the positive comments and likes, it makes me smile. It isn’t a matter of a self-esteem boost, but rather a feeling of support. Knowing that there are complete strangers who have read my story and want me to succeed fills my heart with happiness and hope. Submitting here makes it easier and easier for me to love myself.